Ug. I cannot seem to break myself of my candy binging. I gave up tobacco. I gave up my daily soda. I barely drink anymore. I exercise 3 or 4 times a week. But if you leave me alone with cookies or candy, I wind up like Ginny Sac on the Sopranos. It hit me the other day that this addiction is as strong as my struggle with cigarettes. Thank God I've been away from them for over a decade. My addictions are like whack-a-moles-- once I put one to rest, another one pops up and starts being a nuisance. I know I have more self control than this and I know that I want to keep off the 10 pounds I've lost over the last year or so. Time to get serious.
I think I've written before that since I've lost weight, it keeps me paranoid about putting it back on, AND I still want to lose about 7 or 8 more pounds. That's the tricky part. The first 10 or so came off because of the lack of my daily Coke. Now that I'm slimmer, I feel it, I look it and people have commented on it many times. So when I gorge on the candy, I start freaking out afterwards that slowly, so slowly, I'm packing the pounds back on. It used to be that I didn't care about my belly, because I didn't consider myself overweight. I felt like: "I workout! I eat broccoli! So what if I have a little flab?" But now that I have less flab, I'm obsessed about my stomach and face. Oy, the vanity. If I ask you if my butt looks big in my jeans, you have permission to slap me.
I've got to confront this. Another series of blogs is in order, if only to keep me semi-honest about my success (or lack thereof) with quitting the sweets. I'm going to go 9 days 'clean' until my trip to spring training in Arizona and then 2 months of hardcore diet until my beach vacation in May. I've gotta do it.
So, there it is in print. My sugar free vow. I'll check in periodically to update el blog-o.
Made some good progress on DETOUR today. I hope to finish it up this week and post before I head south next Thursday. It's kind of a quirky one this time; hope you like it when it finally comes out!
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